Finding my way

As a Gemini, as a 31 year old-multitasking, ambitious individual I like to do all the things all the time. I feel so stuck when I haven't accomplished something. And then when I do accomplish something, I’m off to the next thing without giving that accomplishment space to thrive. I have so many passions, and just not enough time in the day. Raise your hand if you feel me??

I’m trying to navigate through it all. I feel like for this space I have to separate things I like to do on the reg. verses things I want to show and share and hopefully turn into a business one day. I started this blog a few months ago and wanted to share a bunch of stuff on it but I think I should narrow it down.

I love traveling and taking photos and those are easy to share on a quick Instagram post.

Reading is a fun pass time of mine but nothing really more than that.

I love cooking and eating(lol), but I don’t want to turn that into a business..

Health and wellness is always the best vibe for me so I may share more of that here.

I love astrology and astronomy and it has become a huge part of my life these passed 6 years. More and more I feel called to branch out into sharing that. What has held me back on sharing about this is that I want to be relatable. Most of my friend group doesn’t vibe with astrology and I totally understand. But that’s where I am feeling this blog will be going, so YOLO. Plus your tribe will always have your back.

You are not for everyone.

I’ve been doing a lot of grounding, a lot of inner work. A lot of therapy, finding my voice and speaking my boundaries. Working on my anxiety and irrational fears. Trying to start a family of my own. Finding what my true calling is. #mentalhealthmatters

Working 40 hours a week is hard enough and then also finding time to eat healthy, work out, spend time with friends, and family... when do we take care of our passion projects? As far as work, I’m moving into a space that I am so excited about- finally. Mentoring and coaching individuals. But that’s just one passion of mine. What about the 50 more that I feel I have zero time for? Like this blog. I want to spend more time on it but the passed couple months have been a lot for ya girl. And then I disconnect from all social media to get away from life. Which doesn't help this blog. #thestruggle

And I want to side bar here. This is a space that I am being truly open and honest. Using my blog as a platform to hopefully have others feel like they are not alone. There are so many unimaginable deviations that are going on in this world that my problems are truly- first world problems. I wanted to take a second to acknowledge and also share that it’s okay to not feel okay. And just because your problems aren’t as "big" as what’s going on in the world right doesn’t mean that you are not entitled to your feelings.

Anyways- so this is what I am feeling today. It will be different than what I am feeling tomorrow- guarantee. But another point off of that is- we are allowed to feel different things at different times. We are allowed to change our mind about things without giving an explanation. That’s something I also struggle with, and I know I’m not alone on that. Giving an explanation as to why I feel a certain way, or act, or want to live my life. Think about it, if we took the fear of being judged out of the equation, would we thrive? I’m actively working on saying my truth without a follow up as to why. More on to come soon. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk.

“Every time you’re given a choice between disappointing someone else and disappointing yourself, your duty is to disappoint that someone else. Your job throughout your entire life, is to disappoint as many people as it takes to avoid disappointing yourself.” -Glennon Doyle, Untamed

Until next time,

Bee