Let's catch up

It's been a hot minute. When I disappear from social media all together it's because I am having a hard time juggling everything I want to do and really just need to focus on my mental health. We often don't share when we are in the thick of it right? I'm working that.. coming around to sharing what I've been going through to be open and transparent, in hopes that it helps one person out there. That was the goal of this blog anways. My last post was in October and so much has changed since then. Career continuing to grow and move again into leadership, the holidays of course are always a wild time and I'm still working on healing my body.

I know I mentioned last time I feel like I am on this never-ending wheel of growth and change and when I am in it, I feel overwhelmed, wondering when it is going to finally end and just be in that coveted sweet spot, of joy and relaxation. But my spirit chose earth for a reason, to learn and grow and I have to humble myself in moments of stress. Ground myself when I feel like flying away and disappearing from the world.

Healing- that's an uphill battle somedays. I talked to my doctor about my frustrations because every day it seems my body is unable to tolerate certain foods (red meats, dairy, gluten, processed foods, cane sugar, corn).... she brought me back down off my ladder my ego lives on. I am grateful to have these lessons as it is making me into the best version of myself which is my goal anyways. My friend also mentioned something to me- I should look at it this way- I am catching these signs of stress in my body early. Some individuals aren't as lucky and go years without knowing and may find it is harder to implement change. So, I am just working on letting go of feeling awkward in group settings with the allergies I have. Letting go of that ego, that fear of rejection that worry around people judging me. It's all in my head. My friends and close family are so supportive of me. It's just about me actually believing that I am supported not that voice in my head. I'm working on understanding the difference between intuition and anxiety. I find that my anxiety is more around fear based thoughts where intuition is something I can feel in my gut... but it's still hard to differentiate..

I got blood work done a few weeks ago and I meet with my doctor to see how I have progressed in the past 3 months in implementing major changes on Thursday of this week. A couple posts ago I shared my hormones were all over the place in addition to inflammation and vitamin deficiencies. So since then, I have been removing all inflammatory foods, sticking to a workout schedule to support PCOS in addition to taking my supplements, balancing work and social life and still trying to keep up with some hobbies I have: astrology, home updates, reading, spending time with my husband. All this is not only for myself but also for future Baby Walker. Creating the best living space for him or her. Let's send all the baby vibes my way please! ;)

So that's really what has been going on the past 4-5 months in a nut shell. It has been tough and I am just putting all my faith and energy into what my overarching goal is- Being the best version of myself. Under that is becoming a mother, sharing my journey, reading a ton of books, learning a bunch, and enjoying a long life with my husband. So when I go back to my goal, my mission in life, it makes all the change and long journey worth it. More to come soon, I promise🖤

Until next time,

Bee